Those Secret Sins

Psalm 90:8  You have set our iniquities before You. Our secret sins in the light of Your countenance.

Oh, those secret sins; those sins that we keep hidden so that we alone can enjoy them and caress their wicked delights. We keep them secret, unexposed so that no one will judge us or confront us about our waywardness although our spirit constantly reminds us of the deadly games we are playing. We may fool others but not ourselves as our own hearts know those secret sins are wrong, and thus the secretness. And how easy is it to justify ourselves in this little game that we play? We make excuses to ourselves as we enjoy these forbidden pleasures, yet we hide them away in the darkness so that no other can see. But, how terrible is the deception which we become so easily entangled. Yes, our secret sins will bring our flesh pleasure for the moment, but we are blinded or do not want to see the the deadly canker that gnaws away at our soul. These secret sins allure us to their tasty delights, but fail to remind us of the guilt of our soul that keeps us awake at night and the constant anxiousness from the worry when they will be exposed. There is a passing adrenaline or the fleeting rush received from the “getting away” with something, but there is no “getting away” as we know of our schemes and more importantly God knows. Therefore we live in the forced denial of the conviction of our soul and more importantly the conviction of the Holy Spirit. Our secret sins promise our freedom, but in reality only lead to bondage. Soon, our secret sins begin to control us rather than us controlling them. Our lives begin to be consumed of the sneakiness and the coverup of our secret sins which ensnare us into deeper bondage. We began to hate the hypocrite that we have become, and not able to honestly look at ourselves in the mirror. The temporary pleasures of our secret sins rob us of the blessed pleasures of the abundance that Christ has promised and the eternal joy of walking in fellowship with the True Lover of our Souls, Jesus Christ. We have traded the corrupt fruit of the world, for the sweet fruit offered only Christ. What a glorious day it is when we can become honest with ourselves and lay our secret sins at the foot of the cross and we begin to enjoy the freedom that can only be found in the grace of God.